Green's speech was laced with moral exhortations. One got the distinct feeling that this was a genuine outpouring and not a well-planned rhetorical delivery. He made a passing, pleasant reference to me.

After the church service, while I was at the entrance of the church, making my way out, he came up to me and squeezed my hand. Some sympathetic maudlin words were on the top of his lips. I am old enough to know when sentiments are superficially flowing. But in this case, I can sense that they weren't biologically determined. Green manifested the visage of a born again person.

As I left for my car, the first thing that came to my mind was why doesn't this guy issue a public apology and finally enter the kingdom of accepting embrace of the Guyanese people? It would do this country a tremendous good if the only surviving member of the era of rough and brutal government that Guyana experienced from 1970 to 1985 would admit that this epoch of senseless policies was mistake and he, Hamilton Green, as one of the shapers of Guyana at that time, acknowledges that wrongs were committed against the nation and the Guyanese people should free themselves of this burden they carry by accepting his apology.

Inside the mind of Hamilton Green lie many of the tantalising mysteries of this country. Of course this statement should be qualified. The past fourteen years of PPP rule has given birth to their own strange tales too. Decades from now, we may know the truth about the deaths of Axel Williams, Ronald Waddell and Sash Sawh and about the ousting of Nagamootoo, and about the PPP's covenant with the Americans in 1992 as the election drew closer.

There is the theory that Jagan made an agreement with the Americans that his government will embrace leading members of the business community and eschew communist policies and rhetoric. As part of the secret order, the PPP formed a fictional organisation called the Civic Component.

This has been one of the nastiest secrets of Guyanese politics since independence. There is absolutely no such thing in the PPP administration called the Civic Component.

My belief is that if there is any dark occurrence in the history of the PPP that will completely exterminate Cheddi Jagan's historical credibility it is that surreptitious arrangement with the Americans at some point in the year 1992 before the October elections came. Not that the promise was a bad one. It was a sensible, realistic and decent act on both sides – Jagan and the Americans.

The Americans had the power to keep him out again and didn't want to but needed the assurance that Jagan would not revert to his silly, foolish, misplaced bravo of the sixties when he didn't understand anything about the Guyanese people and the world. Jagan, for his part, had come to the brutal realisation that he had to sign because communism was not what his country wanted.

Why this revelation will never be released by the PPP is because commonsense would take over and Jagan's record will be erased. If Jagan had only behaved as rational in the fifties and sixties as he did in 1992, Guyana would have been Singapore's competitor in today's world. That is what all Guyanese would say.

In returning to the past of Hamilton Green, the corridor of mysteries is over-flowing with eeriness. Where will Mr. Green begin? I do not know where to begin myself in this article here. Of course, the elections were rigged. Who didn't know that does not what to know anything about their county, Guyana.

There is the death of Vincent Teekah. Walter Rodney's assassination is the Achilles' heel of the PNC.

Really! Where does one begin? I cannot list the secrets of 28 years of government in which Hamilton Green was one of the shapers of the policies that Guyana endured. Of course, there is the funny situation that included among those puzzles, the enigma of PNC Government's hidden relationship with the PPP that Green certainly knows about.

So, Mr. Green can tell us about the cryptic and unknown dimensions of the PNC when it was in government, and about the PPP too when it was the opposition to that government.

My own feeling is that Mr. Green will never be revealing while he lives either in book form or in interviews. Guyanese culture does not permit such exciting candour. Older societies accept and expect that type of character from their past leaders because of the way their society evolved.

In Guyana, the consequences of opening up to the society can be harmful. If the autobiographer has young children, they may suffer at the hands of foolish kids. Others may snub his wife. That is the way we are in Guyana. I can understand if Mr. Green chose those reasons.

Of course, some of the epiphany may be shocking and one would like to think these things people take to the grave with them. Would a former leader admit in his autobiography that he actually destroyed the life of a rival? Wouldn't that have consequences if the opponent's family is still alive?

Mr. Green could of course choose to open up on the less sordid details of Burnham's rule. But I very much doubt that.